YDec13 2011 05.35

   Exactly six years ago, yu officially came and changed my life forever.

I never thought someone would be willing to spend their supposedly special day with me,

just me.


That made yu earn the best spot in my heart, yep it's unconditional.
I can remember the first time I saw yu. That was epic. I told myself yu'll be the last brother i'll ever have. Yure my dream who finally came to breath.

Naaalala ko nasa third floor ka, yu were lookin on the nervous me, frantically jumping. Kuyang kuya talaga. Alam mo yung kitang kita mo ko pero ikaw di ko matitigan. I didn't know what to do when yu were getting down, gusto ko na sanang umuwi kasi natataranta na ko di ko alam ang gagawin. I was about to meet the person i've been dreamin to meet for all my life. Para kasing di ko kakayanin.

pero nginitian mo ko.. .

salamat.

kaya umakyat tayo sa tapat ng Karate.Kid*syet naiiyak aku*
...ng hindi naguusap..
GRAAAA that moment was so awkward!!! That's why we exchanged sms even if we were just side by side. That was crazy. .I texted I'm so shy and already ashamed, but yu said i'm cute *na hanggang ngayun di ko alam kung loko lg yun* / ikaw nga yung cute lalo po nung ngumiti ka. Then yu spoke first, tinanong mo kung kakain tayo. First time I heard yur voice personally.  Parang natatanggap ko ng totoo ngang kasama kita.. 

We ordered chicken and beef mami ..we even made fun of the chinese egg!  Yu gave me portion of your food and yu ate on my bowl too.. then i noticed  yu kept the tissue paper on yur wallet. Shit! sa imagination ko lang noon nakikita yung mga nangyari satin sa Karati.Kid eh. Naisip ko anu kayang nangyayari sa taong to baket parang pinapahalagahan nya ko. .at yung moment na magkasama kami. Kasi diba yung mga tissue na tinatago as keepsake ay sa Elementary/Highschool days lg or pag mahalaga sayu yung kasama mo -as remembrance.

Siguro hindi ganun yung intensiyon mo pero ganun naramdaman ko..

salamat.

We walked out of the resto, I just had the best meal ever. Di lang abot tenga yung ngiti ku. Mula entrance gang kabilang exit po ng mall...ay hindi, mula Pinas gang Pluto po! GRAAAA!! Hindi parin! AAAH basta yung pinakamalayo na lg sa buong lahat lahat!!

Off to the cinema, we chose to watch The Exorcism of Emily Rose..I can remember one scene na nagulat ako at tinignan mo pa ko. haaayz. Then I remembered we needed to go someplace fast dahil magsasara na yung mall. Naalala ko hinawakan kita sa kamay at hinila kita sa Tronix.. then I heard yu whispered "sabi ko na nga ba eh"..kasi matagal na kita inaawitan ng picture nun pra lagi kita kasama..

kung sayu tissue, picture po ang keepsake ko..
Pumili tau ng layout/design...then napili nga naten yung On Air 21

Salamat po sa pag ngiti sa litrato
*shit ayaw tumigil ng luha ko!!!!!*

It was already dark but we still decided to go to Fort Santiago.. We passed the  underpass and I told yu I dont know the way.. sabi mo ikaw alam mo..  Nakakagulat ka tlga, ang lakas mo maka Kuya image.. .yung know all type at di ako mapapano kapag kasama ka.. sigh..
when we were crossing the ruins it started rainin. Pero isa lang payong naten nuon.. yung maliit na payong ko, kaya sikisikan tayu sa payong na yun. I can see it now as i am writing this. Tinago ko kasi para remembrance. We were so close...  only the sound of our breaths and teh rain can be heard.  We were wet and yu stepped on a mud pot!!! HAHAHA ..


...
 ..na kung maibabalik ko lang ay dapat tinapakan ko rin para parehas tayu
:(
:(


haaaayz

Apparently we got lost and we didn't know where we ended up. Basta may PTT nun...yung gasoline station? We checked its convenience store pero wla tayung binili.. kaya we rode a jeepney and dropped off at P.gil.

We ate at 7Eleven, I chose party foods kasi nga b.day mu. May ice.cream rin!! Lame yung foods but that's the only store open by that time. Then I gave yu *Zents.Playlist*
   .shit.
=(

naalala ko yun yung regalo ko sayo...thinking now, i couldve given yu somethin better coz that CD will never equate to yur worth to me..



..at kung mas maganda siguro hindi mo na rin ibabalik sakin...
shit..  shit talaga...shit na iyak toh!!!
;(




ahh basta ayun lumabas na tayu and yu were about to ride,

but yu hugged me first juz like what yu promised/
GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!OOHQIHOQQQQQ AYoko na di ko na makita keyboadrd sa luha na toH!!!

SALamat po Kyu Zent ko!!!!

Lamu po i can do a more detailed version of this ..kaya lang hindi ko magawa gawa kasi naiiyak ako ng sobra.

parang itong blog na to, i said i will create one to post my thank yu's for everything..pero puro kalungkutan ko lang nailalagay ko....
...sorry ..nakakalungkot po kasi tlga... !!!!



 ang hirap lang, that was supposedly your day but yu made it mine
I was supposed to make yu happy but in the end im the happiest..

kaya po kung alam mo lang sana..
na nandirito ako,,Shit!! This is soooooo sad!!

i'm keepin it all..
lalagyan ng icecream
yung payong
yung bag na nilagyan ko ng payong
yung picture naten

but most of all
~my promise.. .i will never leave yu.


and all the memries. ~I'll never let anyone take it away from me. yun yung pinakatreasure ko sa buhay na to..



 it's been six years, but until now everything still feels raw, ultra clear on my mind.




Salamat po.