Lamu ba....
First time in a decade na di ako pumunta sa lugar naten kahapon Nov.05...
Coz a lot happened.. A LOT...a lot changed inside me..
I was actually turned upside down... I still don't know how to discuss it.
Basta sabi sakin... "If you will continue loving your past, it will destroy the people you currently have, and also those who will be with you in the future."
I just lost someone...so I'm trying something new now, like not going to our place as my tradition
...don't know if it's a good idea though.
:(
I'm still sad.
YNov06 20.03 2015
YJul13 22.59 2015
i'm starting to understand the word depression more....
how big it is
how fatal it is..
why it is so hard to battle it.
i'm starting to understand me more..
YJul13 22,54 2015
2. While we still don't know exactly what led her to suicide, most people who commit those things are the people who could no longer see even a small ray of hope in their lives, and could no longer bring themselves to live any longer. That or they're clinically depressed - it's a legitimate mental illness. It's not just a simple act of escaping from their problems.
-from another commenter
YJul13 22:45 2015
"depression is like drowning while seeing everyone around you breathing"
-read this from a commenter of a blog post about Julia Buencamino who committed suicide.
I don't know her, but I've this immense connection to her, .... . . feels creepy weird.
http://www.jamesbangfiles.com/2015/07/julia-buencamino-s-suicide-found-in-her.html
http://www.jamesbangfiles.com/2015/07/julia-buencamino-s-painting-before-she.html
YJul02 06:54 2015
what's protecting yourself for if loving yourself is the hardest thing to do?
what's the use? In the end it's not worth it...
..so throwing it all away might indeed be the better option.
YJun29 05.38 2015
i never thought i could be broken, crushed like this.
di talaga ako makapaniwalang mararamdaman ko to, na mas malala pa kesa sa dati.
YJun27 06:12 2015
no one is hearing me now.
I shout and I shout...but no one is there.
this uncertainty, now i don't even know why I am still here sa mundo
pano na ko...
YJun26 04:45 2015
I was wondering
Would you cry for me?
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
If I was drowning, suffocating
If I told you that I couldn't breathe
YJun26 00:309 2015
why is it when you do your best to make someone happy, that someone in return kills you?
June 15 of this year...I'll never forget.
I am now back to the old me...broken...
.no..I'm more broken than before..
my god..
what should I do..I've never felt so lost.my god.
I never thought I could hurt like this, June 15 pa.