YDec12 2012 07:01

                      been starin at the monitor for quite long now, still dunno wut to write.

-few hours and it's THE day again../

YOct292012 13.12

Nov05 is coming..  guess that's why the thought of you has been lingering more than the usual.

so i checked and for the first time got to read the whole "gimme a mac! :)" thread. Man that was hilarious! Just with the title, i know yur post is the "aint to be taken seriously, but if granted, then hey thankz a lot" type. i just didn't get why many peeps misunderstood yu.

Guess i still know yu, that's why i figured it out immediately!! . . .well..i like comforting myself by thinkin that.

Anyway, yu never fail to amaze me kyu! Real good job. ^^

and contrary to that last post "your lack of basic English skills" ...HUH??? LMFAO!! THEY REALLY DIDN'T KNOW WHO THEY DEALT WITH! ha-ha

YSept16 2012 17.24

 thank yu for the greetings. it made me supahfly-   ..really.

#dontForgetaboutUs

YSept14 2012 20.51

Lookin at my left hand.. I see yu


  ..my favorite scar.

YAug09 2012 23.35

 I can't believe I'm still a stalker.

YJun24 2012 18.44

 wow..at nagseselos parin ako! juz wow!

My April Fools Day-

YFeb18 2012 02:16

its almost feb20...


im indiffirent..

i can remember after that day, I lost the ability to live a happy life.

YFeb09 2012 05:36

I still remember that hazy September
I've been waiting for somebody like you ....To come back around
Now I wish I could go back and make time stop


Naaalala ko pa pumunta pa ko ng skul nyo para lg maramdaman kong malapit ako sayo~

YFeb09 2012 05:23

my life has always been poured with broken promises..that's why there's that one promise i'm tryin to make true everyday, forever~

YFeb08 2012 23:01

Reasons on why you should not totally open up to your so called "friends" :

1.They will give you lame advices
2. More often than not, they wont give a damn if youre sad, bothered or troubled. You'll realize the reality is they dont care at all and you'll hurt more
3. They'll know you and might use what they will know more against you
4. They all will leave you eventually
5. Pag nagopen up ka sa kanila mamulat mulat mo sila na ang nagoopen sau!
6. The whole process is totally unnecessary for in the end, it's still all up to you

YFeb03 2012 01.58

gusto ku ng matamis. nakakapagpasaya raw un.

YFeb02 2012 22.32

if yu cant remove the feeling, yu hide it.
i am doing my very best to hide it, every fuckin day.





i hope yu are proud of me~

YJan30 2012 09.04

yu know.. .



someone came..and ... ..he is different.


now i'm so confused. like i'm in real deep shit...dunno wut to do.

i was confident with my barriers then..but i'm now afraid for no one would take a broken soul.

yu make openin up so hard for me.
yu make trustin so hard for me.
yu make lovin so hard for me.

~but then i know it's not yur fault.
=(

YJan30 2012 08.56

juz discovered this song not so long ago..been on repeat since first play. Been crying for sometime now too because of this.

Haunting..
so intense specially the last chorus.

SOBER

And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I'm still standing here (yeah...still standing here..)
Three months and I'm getting better yeah (getting better at lyin, hidin)
Three months and I still am

Three months and it's still harder now (definitely)
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months Five years and I'm still breathing grieving
Three months Five years and I still remember it
Three months Five years and I wake up

Three months Five years and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers ....memories

YJan30 2012 08.04

when no one really knows you..~juz hide. Don't let anyone touch you for he will not understand.

/onTwitter

YJan 26 2012 03.37

im so afraid to let someone in, because of yu-

YJan24 2012 1.07

i ignored two of your sms' already/
..went to the restroom to cry again

YJan13 2012 06.36

EDIT-
how i hope yu'll accidentally be on this site..
so yu'll know how much i hurt
;(

but then i know it's better for yu not to be here.. .not only because yu're a grammar police but mostly you'll just be angry
/it's so much better to hide in mah own little world
:(
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;(
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;(

YJan14 2012 06.17

Breakdown
Mariah Carey

Break break down,
Steady breakin' me on down, break break down,
Steady breakin' me on down,
Break break down, steady breakin' me on down,
Break break down, steady breakin' me on down.

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me,
But that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended
To be feeling similarly
And led you to believe it was o.k
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me

[Chorus]
Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

So what do you do
When somebody you're so devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you
And it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride
And sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way?"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

Yeah, c'mon, yeah, c'mon, c'mon

Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

It'll break you down
Only if you let it
Everyday crazy situations rocking my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it
Forget it (forget it)

I be feelin' like you bringing me down
Taking me around
Stressin' me out
I think i better go and get out
And let me release some stress (stress)

Don't ever wanna feel no pain (pain)
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain (rain, rain, rain)
Lord, I just wanna maintain

Yeah, I can feel pressures y'all
But never the less
Krayzie won't fall
It's over, it's ending here (here)

Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry







so many lines hit me~ :(

YJan13 2012 06.39

how i hope yu'll accidentally be in this site..
so yu'll know how much i hurt
;(

YJan08 2012 17.49

Just because I let you go doesn't mean I wanted to.

-this
:(

/on Twitter

YJan08 2012 17.40

SOMETIMES we just have to realize and accept that there are people that might stay forever in our HEART, but not in our LIFE..

/on FB

YJan07 2012 16.27

people come and go. and most of the times when they leave ~it's forever

YJan06 2012 01.45

this song always saddens me..the intro, specially the first two lines
:(

Nagmamakaawa
Bugoy Drilon


Nong ako’y iniwan mo
Nawasak ang mundo
Umikot lang sayo
Ang buhay kong ito

Hindi ko alam
Di alam ang dahilan
Bigla nalang iniwan
Wala namang kasalanan

Bakit oh bakit ba?
Iniwan mong nagiisa
Ginawa namang lahat
Subalit di pa ba sapat?

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Labis na nasaktan mo
Ngunit kahit pa anong gawin
Ika’y mahal parin

Nagmamahaawa ang puso kong
Bigla na lang iniwan mo
Ngunit ika’y mahal pa rin
Magbalik ka sa akin
Nagmamakaawa

Nung ako’y iniwan mo
Tumigil ang mundo
Parang di ko kayang ituloy
Ang buhay kong ito

Sabihin mo sa akin?
Ano ang dapat kong gawin
Bakit mo iniwan,
Wala namang kasalanan

Bakit oh bakit ba?
Iniwan mong nagiisa
Ginawa namang lahat
Subalit di pa ba sapat?

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Labis na nasaktan mo
Ngunit kahit pa anong gawin
Ika’y mahal parin

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Bigla na lang iniwan mo
Ngunit ika’y mahal pa rin
Magbalik ka sa akin nagmamakaawa
Ooohhh

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Labis na nasaktan mo
Ngunit kahit pa anong gawin
Ika’y mahal parin

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Bigla na lang iniwan mo
Ngunit ika’y mahal pa rin
Magbalik ka sa akin nagmamakaawa

Ika’y mahal parin
Magbalik ka sa akin
Nagmamakaawa....

YJan06 2012 01.34

lamu kyu Zent ku, my 13th month pay went to mom's dialysis po!
c^^,)

ambait ku pu ba?
ambait ku pu ba?!
ahehehehhehehe



:(

YJan06 2012 01.10

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried. ~this ;(

YJan05 2012 05.07

cguro kung noong 2005 ko pa ginawa tong blog na to...siguro ilang libo libong blog entries na ang nandito.

YJan05 2012 03.38

i can hear him say
"get a life"

:(

YJan01 2012 03.57

I've become too gay

someone yu wouldn't like
someone i'm ashamed of

YJan01 2012 00.23

2011 has ended/
survived another year without yu.