so i am stalking yu online instead of sleepin. -4real.4real/nuffsaid
Ice: Back to my original plan~
Ice: Back to my original plan~: I'm ashamed of what Ive become. I realized I'm straying tooooo far from the person I want to be. I wonder if you will ever be proud of me ...
YNov29 2011 12.04
My cry line for today:
I kept my distance so yu would be free
When will I see you again
You left with no goodbye
Not a single a word was said
No final kiss to seal any sins
I had no idea in the state we were in
I know I have a fickle heart
And a bitterness and a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head
[chorus]
But don't you remember
Don't you remember
The reason you left me before
Baby, please remember me once more
When was the last time
You thought of me
Oh have you completely erased me from your memory
I often think about where I went wrong
The more I do the less I know
I know I have a fickle heart
And a bitterness and a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head
[chorus]
But don't you remember
Don't you remember?
The reason you left me before
Baby, please remember me once more
Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,
[chorus]
Why don't you remember?
Don't your remember?
The reason you left me before
Baby, please remember me once more
When will I see you again
YNov29 2011 12.02
how come songs have those lines that can instantly drop a ton in your chest?
yung swak na swak..at bloody hell ang sakit T.T
Imma call em my cry lines.
when all of a sudden I'll just stare into nothingness and cry
YNov29 2011 11.05
there are times I wish yu know everything..
then I'll get hit by "whatever, it wont even matter" :(
YNov24 2011 05.50
ang kulit lg tlga. juz after my last post RMTW played sa kabilang bay. kasama to sa subtle.momentz ah
I'll make a wish for yu/ hope it will come true-
AAANG LUUUUNGKOOOOOOT!!!!!!! GRAAAAAH
*kailangan.wag.umiyak* :(
YNov24 2011 05.41
Ngayon naman si ateng Carmel (yung maintainance dito sa bdlg.) ang nagtanong kung baket ako malungkot??
Does it really show!?!?!? GRRRRRRRRR i thought I'm doin a good job in hiding it!
YNov22 2011 14.40
I REALLY should find somfn worthy to do
to keep my mind from thinkin ov yu -shit, that rhymes.
YNov22 2011 14.13
Weird..watching Laddaland made me realize bout my father ..and
how sad life is .. <deep.sigh>
YNov20 2011 02.42
In high spirit when you e.mailed. You remembered...
then I just I blinked, your gone once again.
that was toooo fast.
=(
YNov19 2011 02.44
Ulti mo si Ateng guard tinatanong na ko kung baket ilang araw na kong malungkot? WT...
YNov18 2011 20.00
How come i feel indifferent when someone says they are there for me/ "tell me your prob" and the likes. i was clumsy i txted one colleague saying i wanted to die and she replied with comforting words. Didnt raise my spirit wutsoever.
i thought of opening up but i know that'll dumb of me...juz gonna get myself into trouble.
i dont know why but i view everybody now as my enemy. No one i can fully trust.
so yeah, i closed my world.
YNov18 2011 15.11
so yeah, you found someone better...
I don't wanna go deep don't wanna go into details.
it makes breathing so hard.
;( ;( ;( ;( ;( ;( ;(
YNov18 2011 14.16
After two long years.. you messaged me on my yahoo.mail..
I was extremely surprised.. . .
is it bcoz yu found out I've been stalking you lately?
or is it because you can sense yur on my mind a lot this past few weeks?
well I think I spent half hour thinking what to send back -and it has been more than an hour now I'm staring on my inbox for your reply..
YNov17 2011 23:45
Kanina hindi ko alam, ginising ako ni papa, tapos pag kababa ko si mama naka oxygen at para nanamang isda na wala sa tubig..bago ko matulog maayos na maayos naman sya eh...
Which do yu think is harder?
A situation where in yu suddenly lose someone and move on through time..
or yur moving on through time with the repeating fear of losing the one you love?
YNov17 2011 02.53
If the day should ever come
That the love we found has gone
And the dreams we shared have drifted away
Though i know the golden sun
Still shines down on everyone
My cold world would never be the same
So I'll send a prayer
One day you'll see
Someday you'll realize
How everything you are
How everything you are to me
i can't expect you to know
Something that i never show
But the whirling of the world gets in the way
And it's not that i don't care
And it's not that i don't wanna share
But some of these words are just too big to say
So I'll send a prayer
Someday you'll see
One day you'll realize
I'll send a prayer
Someday you'll see
One day you'll realize
How everything you are
How everything you are to me
YNov 2011 14.47
I thought it would be easier after the first post, but I'm wrong again. Alone, words slips me. I wanna write but I dont know what to write. Mediocre phrases greets me. So I turn to songs. I am glad they are here to provide a picture of my current insides.
The intro music played -I feel empty.
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
My Warning-
Dunno why I created this crap. Dunno how to start. Guess this is one of those times when the ton inside my chest is taking over and giving in seems like a favor, a rest in my long battlefield. I'm ashamed I know my writing never can equate to what im feeling inside but sadness is currently maneuvering my hand, taking its chance to break free. I'm about to text you now but I'll fail that fight I've been on for three years. Creating this site seems less embarrassing.
I know no one will intentionally be here, and if in case you stumbled here reading this crap ...then
go one, be gone, hit X. This shitload is just my sadness. Wont do you any good -TA