YJan30 2012 09.04

yu know.. .



someone came..and ... ..he is different.


now i'm so confused. like i'm in real deep shit...dunno wut to do.

i was confident with my barriers then..but i'm now afraid for no one would take a broken soul.

yu make openin up so hard for me.
yu make trustin so hard for me.
yu make lovin so hard for me.

~but then i know it's not yur fault.
=(

YJan30 2012 08.56

juz discovered this song not so long ago..been on repeat since first play. Been crying for sometime now too because of this.

Haunting..
so intense specially the last chorus.

SOBER

And I don't know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing's real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I've been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it's never really over

And I don't know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It's never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I'm still standing here (yeah...still standing here..)
Three months and I'm getting better yeah (getting better at lyin, hidin)
Three months and I still am

Three months and it's still harder now (definitely)
Three months I've been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months Five years and I'm still breathing grieving
Three months Five years and I still remember it
Three months Five years and I wake up

Three months Five years and I'm still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers ....memories

YJan30 2012 08.04

when no one really knows you..~juz hide. Don't let anyone touch you for he will not understand.

/onTwitter

YJan 26 2012 03.37

im so afraid to let someone in, because of yu-

YJan24 2012 1.07

i ignored two of your sms' already/
..went to the restroom to cry again

YJan13 2012 06.36

EDIT-
how i hope yu'll accidentally be on this site..
so yu'll know how much i hurt
;(

but then i know it's better for yu not to be here.. .not only because yu're a grammar police but mostly you'll just be angry
/it's so much better to hide in mah own little world
:(
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YJan14 2012 06.17

Breakdown
Mariah Carey

Break break down,
Steady breakin' me on down, break break down,
Steady breakin' me on down,
Break break down, steady breakin' me on down,
Break break down, steady breakin' me on down.

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me,
But that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended
To be feeling similarly
And led you to believe it was o.k
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me

[Chorus]
Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

So what do you do
When somebody you're so devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you
And it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride
And sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way?"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

Yeah, c'mon, yeah, c'mon, c'mon

Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

It'll break you down
Only if you let it
Everyday crazy situations rocking my mind
Tryin' to break me down
But I won't let it
Forget it (forget it)

I be feelin' like you bringing me down
Taking me around
Stressin' me out
I think i better go and get out
And let me release some stress (stress)

Don't ever wanna feel no pain (pain)
Hoping for the sun
But it looks like rain (rain, rain, rain)
Lord, I just wanna maintain

Yeah, I can feel pressures y'all
But never the less
Krayzie won't fall
It's over, it's ending here (here)

Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry







so many lines hit me~ :(

YJan13 2012 06.39

how i hope yu'll accidentally be in this site..
so yu'll know how much i hurt
;(

YJan08 2012 17.49

Just because I let you go doesn't mean I wanted to.

-this
:(

/on Twitter

YJan08 2012 17.40

SOMETIMES we just have to realize and accept that there are people that might stay forever in our HEART, but not in our LIFE..

/on FB

YJan07 2012 16.27

people come and go. and most of the times when they leave ~it's forever

YJan06 2012 01.45

this song always saddens me..the intro, specially the first two lines
:(

Nagmamakaawa
Bugoy Drilon


Nong ako’y iniwan mo
Nawasak ang mundo
Umikot lang sayo
Ang buhay kong ito

Hindi ko alam
Di alam ang dahilan
Bigla nalang iniwan
Wala namang kasalanan

Bakit oh bakit ba?
Iniwan mong nagiisa
Ginawa namang lahat
Subalit di pa ba sapat?

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Labis na nasaktan mo
Ngunit kahit pa anong gawin
Ika’y mahal parin

Nagmamahaawa ang puso kong
Bigla na lang iniwan mo
Ngunit ika’y mahal pa rin
Magbalik ka sa akin
Nagmamakaawa

Nung ako’y iniwan mo
Tumigil ang mundo
Parang di ko kayang ituloy
Ang buhay kong ito

Sabihin mo sa akin?
Ano ang dapat kong gawin
Bakit mo iniwan,
Wala namang kasalanan

Bakit oh bakit ba?
Iniwan mong nagiisa
Ginawa namang lahat
Subalit di pa ba sapat?

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Labis na nasaktan mo
Ngunit kahit pa anong gawin
Ika’y mahal parin

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Bigla na lang iniwan mo
Ngunit ika’y mahal pa rin
Magbalik ka sa akin nagmamakaawa
Ooohhh

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Labis na nasaktan mo
Ngunit kahit pa anong gawin
Ika’y mahal parin

Nagmamakaawa ang puso kong
Bigla na lang iniwan mo
Ngunit ika’y mahal pa rin
Magbalik ka sa akin nagmamakaawa

Ika’y mahal parin
Magbalik ka sa akin
Nagmamakaawa....

YJan06 2012 01.34

lamu kyu Zent ku, my 13th month pay went to mom's dialysis po!
c^^,)

ambait ku pu ba?
ambait ku pu ba?!
ahehehehhehehe



:(

YJan06 2012 01.10

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried. ~this ;(

YJan05 2012 05.07

cguro kung noong 2005 ko pa ginawa tong blog na to...siguro ilang libo libong blog entries na ang nandito.

YJan05 2012 03.38

i can hear him say
"get a life"

:(

YJan01 2012 03.57

I've become too gay

someone yu wouldn't like
someone i'm ashamed of

YJan01 2012 00.23

2011 has ended/
survived another year without yu.